[11 Dec 2006|04:32pm] [ mood | depressed ] all I have to say is a guy who would hit a girl, is a serious whimp. kthanks. thats the lowest you can go. and this is why I have trust issuses with them. this is the one time I wish travis was still around, he wouldve done something about it. but no, im retarded and dont listen and now look what happens. you get hurt. Leave me some ♥

[15 Nov 2006|07:01pm] [ mood | sore ] We lost to effing sophomores..and they cheat. But they cheated, and didnt get the pealties for it, but we would hold someone or something,we would get the penalty. its not fair. and im not just saying it because we lost, im saying it because its true. but at least we lost fair and square, right? To bad it was to sophomores. ugh. Leave me some ♥

[27 Oct 2006|12:38pm] [ mood | crushed ] you never hear about accidents happening at anyone elses school, just mine. Death comes in threes...got that right *first andrew in his car accident *Dj ODing *Now the five of them in a car accident, one died, ones paralyzed, two in critical condition, ones fine for the most part. but it always happens at caroline... keep these five guys in your prayers. Leave me some ♥

[19 Oct 2006|11:26pm] [ mood | sad ] Andrews birthday is almost here, its going to be hard. it was hard enough seeing his dad last weekend at the car wash, on the way home, i cried. its not fair he had to die, he had to be the one they wanted back. all we want is him back, but we know we'll see him again some day. school been good i guess, im stressed out all the time and not getting any sleep, but other then that its good. ive only been in one fight so far, and that was out of school, so it really dosent count. we take the superlative pictures tomorrow, or at least i do, carl didnt show up today, so i stayed after for nothing, except to go see pitts pond and enjoy the good weather one last time. so theyre giving the award to chris picket now, since carl is showing no interest in winning. i cant wait for this year to be over Leave me some ♥

[01 Sep 2006|01:32am] So i found the truck i want, but my moms being a bitch and wont help me buy it. he only wants 1000 for it, and its safe! thats what she dosent seem to understand, it has a roll bar and everything. ugh. parents. to bad she wants me to save for it, because is a stick and she dosent want to teach me to drive it. so lets see if grandma will help me...probably not huh.. darnit. Leave me some ♥

[19 Jul 2006|11:49pm] [ mood | crazy ] I leave tomorrow!!! yay for the beach! and no parents!!!! YES!!! Im not doing good on the whole no travis deal. we called him playing a joke at work, then he called me and bitched me out, so i did the same(cause it was cc who called him anyways) then he called me at like midnight apologizing..i was like w..t..c!? but we had a long conversation....(i didnt get off the phone until 1:30 something..) and then we hung out tuesday, so i guess we're ok. First, we went to the scrap yard at like 2:30, then i came home because his dad was close, and me + his dad = not good..then he called me at like 9:50 something telling me that hes almost at my house to pick me up, so me him and adrian went to walmart.. =) it was fun. i chased adrian around with my flip flop haha but it was fun. who knew walmart could be so entertaining at midnight?! they bought some winch for the truck, which seemed like a rip off, but w/e. i was supposed to be home at 11:30, but we didnt leave walmart itself till like 11:45, cause adrian had to go get something for his brother, so me and travis fell asleep in the truck. then i climbed in the back and went to sleep while we went to adrains moms store, that took forever. Then we went to adrians to drop off some milk, and hitting 90 on a back road is fun, wouldve been more fun if thtey let me drive though.. =) then i came home, the whole time with my mom calling me and trying to figure out who im going to get inside since his parents couldnt see the truck, cause he was supposed to be staying at adrians, ya, that didnt work. lol But i got in and my mom started yelling at me cause it was 1 o'clock and i just got home and she thinks i sneak out, which i dont, but i should.... (idea) but, idk I do know i leave tomorrow!!!!!! and i get paid tomrrow, score. Leave me some ♥

[12 Jul 2006|03:10pm] [ mood | morose ] It still dosent seem real.... I still think it was a joke, I thought we were looking at a doll, not andrew, he wasnt dead, it was a lie... it wasnt a lie. it was true, and i dont wanna believe it. some many people were there. Travis was there, and I made peace with him, because heaven forbid he was in an accident, i dont want the last thing i say to him to be dont talk to me... so we made peace. and i never knew it could cry so much, but i could. they gave andrews parents his diploma, and put his cap in the casket with him. I cried so hard at the funeral, ecspecially once they shut the casket, and when they rolled it by my i collapsed in laurens arms. I never thought id see Clyaton, my "big brother" crying, but everyone was. I help brandons hand, and wouldnt let go, i didnt want to. I did the same thing with Lauren and Jarred. Monday night we went the rite aid parking lot after the viewing to get together, to celebrate andrews life, travis was there, and so was ben =) but he left before anything happened between us...darnit. and bates was there to =) and his horn sucks btw. I saw so many of my friends that i havent seen in so long, but this wasnt the way i wanted to see them. I did not want to start my summer this way. It makes you realize things real fast. i went to the tree he hit and we put threee red roses on it, and i have a piece of his head light from it. We went to see the truck, it looks like at the most he hit a deer, seeing it youd think thats what happened, not someone died in it. They have plastic covering the windshield so you cant see where he went threw.. it just dosent seem real, i dont want it to be real. Everyone, please drive safe, you never think it can happen to you, but it can.. please, be careful Andrew O. Ayers 11/03/88 - 7/8/06 "Only the good die young." ♥ Leave me some ♥

[09 Jul 2006|11:11pm] [ mood | and hurt ] I did it. I told Travis goodbye =) I feel so proud of myself. Instead now im flirting with a twin, and idk which one sometimes. haha, but yes, i am no longer caring about Travis. Andrew's viewing is tomorrow, the funerals tuesday, i dont think im gonna be able to just sit there quietly.. but we'll see.. Leave me some ♥

Boys... [02 Jul 2006|11:33pm] [ mood | confused ] Travis came home today, and I hung out with him after work, and i dont know what to do anymore. The whole thing is confusing, I was thinking, its the summer, hes in Mexico, I can do this. I must've been so wrong. He called me at work, drove by, and I almost fell off my stool when I saw the truck sitting outside. Then he picked me up from Angelas and me him and adrian went riding around, it felt like old times, and that somewhat scared me, because I was so confortable with him, even after everything thats gone on, I felt safe. I dont know how I feel anymore. I still feel like I like him, then when I dont talk to him, I could'nt care less about him, but the minute I see his truck or his hoodie, it all comes running back. blah. Boys are so confusing. Leave me some ♥

[14 May 2006|09:47pm] Prom was so fun! I have the pics on myspace and i'll put them on here later, once i get the patience. Other then that, ive been having a good couple of weeks. Except for the few fights Ive gotten in with Travis, but those are working them selves out. I cant believe proms over though.. it was jsut amaxing, everything was perfect and everyone looked so pretty, and no one had a dress like mine =) 2 People Love me|Leave me some ♥

[28 Mar 2006|07:58pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] I got my learners! & I dyed my hair brown. & I hate his guts =) The end! 4 People Love me|Leave me some ♥

HIT & RUN! haha [16 Mar 2006|10:40pm] [ mood | bouncy ] Eh. I hate high school life. Its so complicated. I havent fought with Kerianne in like 2 weeks I think, its something like that. Feels kinda good. But I'm not liking the looks. Ps, someone hit her dad with a car, & I think she thinks it was me & lauren. Ya, we're gonna target your dad out & hit him with a car, if we were gonna hit anyone, it'd be you sweetheart. haha ANYWAYS....other than that, nothings really been going on. Travis isnt mad at me, apparently never was, just wasnt talking to me because he thought I was mad at him. I was, but not now. Trust me, not now. He's not coming to Jasons show cause he has to work & do inventory and cant get off. Which makes me feel kinda special cause he said if he could get off he'd come, cause I told him Sam & Jason wanna meet him =) so idk anymore. One minute we're talking and everything, then the next we wont even look at each other. Although I did tell him he wasnt allowed to grab my butt on the bus this afternoon, I dont think he liked that, but hey what can I say. e just kept saying, well I used to be allowed to, I said, you used to be allowed to do a lot, but you kinda broke a promise, so =P. It felt kinda good. =) But ya, idk anymore. & We have training this weekend, ugh. 9-5, wtc?! I[m never up that early. then theres Jasons show, which idk if I can go cause I have the flu & strep throat. Which sucks alone, but together they are brutal. But, Im trying to get better so I can. I get to go to the mall with LaLa tomorrow, maybe get our nails done, which will feel nice, since I like pinching someone. =) Im gonna go curl up in his hoodie & lay down, cause Im not feeling good. Blah. I hate being sick ♥ ps, cake at 10:30 is a bad idea, cause now im hyper...eh Leave me some ♥

[08 Mar 2006|09:17pm] [ mood | cheerful ] Ugh, I messed up my no flirting for lent, dammit. I messed that up like the 2nd or 3rd day. =) woops?.. What can I say, I like flirting... specially with Jeremey =) he smexy! So, thngs are just confusing right now. Ive gone like 2 weeks without talking to Travis, then all of a sudden this afternoon on the bus he wants to act like nothing happened... wtc?! Because of him I smelled like auto-tech for like a million hours, well, until like 20 mins ago when I took a shower. I just wish things would go back to normal, or somewhat normal, what ever that was.... NOTE: Jasons show is March 18th at the Byrd Theater, & I think you all should go. Cause me & Sam are selling his cds =) end NOTE hehe So Im gonna go watch Miami Ink, cause they're hot ;) Leave me some ♥

[27 Feb 2006|09:35pm] [ mood | crushed ] Ever get that feeling you cant do anything right? Ya, Hi, I have it now. It sucks. Kthanks. I odnt like it. I didnt start it this time. I admit, we did start it last time, but nope, not this time, she did. What I dont understand is how you can go from seeing me inthe yearbook room & be like "lets do it on the table" & joking around, then seeing me at Donnies & leaning in the car talking to me all nice & everything, to watching her send me those messages & not doing anything about it. Then calling us like your gonna do something. It just dosent make sense to me. Maybe its just because I dont want to, or maybe because your just to stupid to realize it for yourself. But yet, when I locked myself out, your so sweet when Im there, putting your arms around my waist, letting me wear your hoodie, & trying to keep me warm. You even said you yelling at me that Friday before was to "keep the bitch happy." Explain to me how you go from being so sweet, to being a complete ass?! Its just something that has been on my mind for a while. Idk, maybe Im just being a girl, with my stupid girl moments. But when you say your surprised me & Lauren can go into a church without getting struck by lightning, what about yourself?! I do not honestly see where that came from. Maybe it was just because it was early in the morning, so Ill let that go, but, I did; then, take it offensively. Idk, maybe Im just being weird or something. I do know Im done putting up with her crap. She calls me a stalker anymore its on like Racheal & kaite were today. =) Ahh... I feel better. =) Other than that, everythings been good. I hung out with Lauren all weekend. That was fun except for when she almost hit a shed..but lets not go there, cause Ill get pissed off again. This is how all this crap with Kerianne got started. ugh But ya, we had fun. Tried on prom dresses. Realized I think I need to either stop eating so much junk food or need to start doing curlups or something for my stomach. Cause its kinda gross. kthanks. Im going to bed, just thought I would fill people in so they know I didnt die =) Leave me some ♥

[22 Feb 2006|03:49pm] [ mood | content ] lately everything has been crazyness. EVERYTHING has been all wonky. But eh. Thing with Travis are slowly working themselves out. He rode with me & justine this morning, which was good cause I needed to talk to him, but then Carter ended up riding with us, so I didnt get to talk to him because she dosent know anything thats going on. So ya. Me & LaLa cussed out him & Kerianne sat, it was so fun! All because she kept hanging up on us, & all we wanted was to know a dogs name because We thought we saw his missing hunting dog. Needless to say we didnt catch the dog. But we appologized for it, & everythings good. But Im not allowed to talk to Kerianne anymore, cause they know I would have somehting rude to say =) She desereves it... Anyways. Today was fun though. After lunch we were leaving the cafeteria Aaron came up behind me & put his arms around me & walked with my down the hall. Then I mouthed to Justine "help me" & she pulled me away. Then once we get down the hall Sean puts his arms around my waist, & that scared the crap out of me. kthanks. Things with us are just getting wierd. We dont talk for the longest time then out of no where he'llsend me a text that says "hey sexy whats up?" I was like, um, scume. But ya. Me & Krystal were talking outside of 6th & she was like Sean likes you again, I know it. That thought is just kinda creepy. IDK if I would go back out with him. Ive told Justine & Travis to slap me if I did. But the way things are going with him, I just might. Plus, Seans a sweetheart when he's not sending you a text message every 5 mins...=\ Leave me some ♥

[13 Feb 2006|05:30pm] [ mood | blank ] Im soo tired of being confused. It needs to stop. You need to make your mind, plain & simple. Well, I think it is. Your just stupid. Tomorrows V-day, & I dont wanna go, I DONT wanna see if she got anything, Ill cry, I will, I know it. Just make up your mind, thats all I ask of you. Please.. Leave me some ♥

[11 Feb 2006|05:15pm] [ mood | crushed ] Everything is just starting to hit me. Its junior year. I have one more year left. Then its college, then marriage, then kids, then who knows. Where did the time go? It seems like 8th grade just ended. I still remember Freshman Transition. We thought travis was a recycling bin. oops. Lauren & Johnthan.. everything. It all seems like it just happened, not 3 years ago. All the fights, DRAMA, boys, seems so close. But ya. For some reason that all hit me last night. I wanna know whats gonna happen with.. ya. Lets see in about two weeks. Or we wil fight. Travis heard an earful the other day. I thought it was deserving, but maybe it was just me. Justine thought it fit to, but she knows everything so ya. & Sam thought so to. Seeing as Sam was talking to him while I was asleep =) I just wanna know whats going to happen. PS, Its SNOWING! ♥ Leave me some ♥

[22 Jan 2006|09:26pm] [ mood | pissed off ] SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO done withh arguing with people. Preston, you can Kiss my little white ass. I asked you a simple question & you jump down my throat?!!? I DONT think so. You have no right to say Im bitching at you, or to even call me a bitch. Got that?! Gah, Im so done with people right now. I wanna crawl in a hole & disappear. 1 People Love me|Leave me some ♥

Yes, random entry (excitedness!) [22 Jan 2006|05:22pm] [ mood | cheerful ] So, I feel oober stupid. one, I talked to someone I said I never would again proabably, Like all weekend. gah I dont know why either. But hey, its good to keep friends right? Supposed to hang out with Justine this weekend, ya, that didnt happen. Ended up hanging out with Hillary, here, at home, where I am all the time. This bits. A 16 year old whos always stuck at home. Thanks to mom for talking me out of going out wile Im ASLEEP! But oh well. i have ot go back to work this coming weekend cause I have to "interview" even though I filled out all the papers from hell =) But we'll see, at least Ill get to see Sam & Jason! Cause I miss them... a lot. (& ill get to see everyone else to) Mental note to self, I need to learn to type/spell/everything else, although to some people its funny & just perfect, but I find it annoying, kthanks. Well, Im going o fix this unruly curly mess that I call hair, because I want it to look nice tomorrow... ha (I hope Im not riding the bus...) Leave me some ♥

I want a boy... [13 Jan 2006|08:24pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] I want a boy--- Who can wrestle with me And let me win. Who I can talk to about anything. Who laughs at my jokes. A boy who puts my cold hands In his warm hoodie pockets. Who lets me use his sweatshirt For a pillow. Who buys me 25 cent rings, And sticky hands. Who says I love you & means it. Who will kiss me in the rain, In the sunshine, and in the snow. Who calls unexpectedly. Who will have many inside jokes With and me remember each one. A boy who notices girl's haircuts. Who realizes that girls say things But dont always mean them. Who i can go swimming with On hot days. Who can tell me his problems And let me help. Who will listen to me talk-- About the new nail polish i got. Who will bring me seashells From the beach. Who writes love letters to me, But doesn't send them. Who draws pictures and slips them Gently into my locker slot. Who saves his genuine, big smiles for me. A boy with deep eyes, That can see through faces into depths. Who wears baseball hats and Lets me wear his too. Who gives me his t-shirt to change into And not expect to get it back. Who knows my favorite color, song, Car, vegetable, perfume and The color of my toothbrush. A boy who will shake my step-dad's hand and look my mother in the eye. Who will call me by my full name-- First, middle and last. A boy who will kiss me and Tell me i'm beautiful. A boy who will let me cry to him. Who will squeeze my hips just right. Who suprises me and compliments My manicure and plays with my hair. Who knows when i have a math test Or when i fail one. A boy who smells like He just stepped out of the shower. Who tells me i have a nice laugh, And a smile that lights up the room. A boy who's simply mine to hold. <3 1 People Love me|Leave me some ♥

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